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Carrie Sun graduates from MIT with dual degrees in math and finance and wants to pursue creative writing, but needs a day job to pay bills.
She meets with headhunter Peter who thinks she’d be perfect for the sole assistant role to billionaire Boone Prescott, founder of Carbon private equity fund.
Carbon is a top performing fund seen as financial royalty, like related fund Argon. People rarely leave Carbon once they join.
Carrie’s best friend Yuna serves as a reference for the job. After 10 interviews, Yuna is nervous speaking to a billionaire but helps Carrie get the prestigious role.
Carrie sees the job as an opportunity to figure out her life and pay bills while pursuing writing, rather than focusing on maximizing earnings or status.
The assistant is being pitched to Boone Carbon, the founder and CEO of the hugely successful hedge fund Carbon, for an assistant role. Boone is described as very nice by everyone.
The role would involve being Boone’s right-hand person, managing his schedule, doing some research to support him and one of his analysts.
The narrator interviews with Jen, Boone’s assistant, and impresses her with answers about wanting to optimize someone’s life rather than pursue her own career in finance.
Boone wants to meet the narrator. She goes to Carbon’s luxurious offices high up in Manhattan, where everything signals wealth, success and prestige.
The narrator waits in a stunning conference room overlooking Central Park to meet Boone. By this point in her life and career, she has grown less impressed by displays of money and status.
This job opportunity could be a “once-in-a-lifetime” chance, but it also comes with significant responsibility as the assistant to such an important figure.

The passage discusses an interview process at the hedge fund Carbon to become Boone’s assistant. The narrator has several interviews over the course of three weeks with various people at the firm, including Boone, his wife Elisabeth, software analyst Gabe, COO Jay, and investor relations directors Bridget and Emma.

In the interviews, Gabe questions why the narrator would want an assistant role instead of becoming a portfolio manager. The narrator emphasizes their love of people over numbers. Boone tests the narrator’s ability to perform under pressure. Elisabeth believes the narrator would be a “perfect fit” for the half assistant, half research role.

Over the many interviews, the narrator impresses the interviewers with their preparation, composure under questioning, and understanding of what the role requires in helping Boone manage every detail. Boone is most concerned that the narrator not intimidate others. By the end, Boone notes that no one has ever voluntarily left Carbon, signaling that the narrator is being seriously considered for the position.

Sloane was interviewing for a role at Carbon, a prestigious investment firm. She had to go through an intensive interview process.
Sloane impressed the hiring managers, especially Boone, one of the founders. He pushed her to get references from many contacts, which she succeeded in doing through persistence and networking.
Sloane accepted the job offer and prepared to relocate from Michigan to New York. She ended her engagement and changed her phone number to cut ties with her ex-fiancé.
Carbon provided many perks and resources to Sloane to help with the transition, such as paying for a new cell phone plan and temporarily housing her in New York.
Sloane was feeling anxious but determined on her first day at Carbon, having devoted significant effort to landing this prestigious role at a leading investment firm.
The passage provides background on the origins and development of the hedge fund industry from its creation in 1949 by Alfred Jones to the modern day.
It traces the growth of the industry from a few hundred funds in the 1990s managing $39 billion to over 7,000 funds by 2010 managing over $1.5 trillion.
Major developments include the dot-com boom attracting institutional investors in the late 90s/early 2000s, the 2008 financial crisis which caused significant redemptions, and increased regulation and compliance requirements post-crisis.
Emphasis has shifted from solely superior performance to maintaining assets as funds got larger, fees incentivized asset gathering, and digital access democratized information, increasing competition.
Overall the passage provides a useful historical overview of the hedge fund industry from its beginnings to recent structural changes in incentives, investors, regulation and competition levels.
The hedge fund industry grew rapidly in the mid-2010s, with the total number of funds increasing to 11,000 and assets under management reaching $2.6 trillion.
However, this concentration led to performance dilution as investment opportunities shrank. Funds may have also exhibited herd behavior by harvesting the same companies. Original research became more important to outperform the market.
By contrast, Carbon’s assets had grown over 500x since inception. It produced very high annual returns, even returning over 90% one year. Though impacted by the financial crisis, it recovered by focusing on its strengths in tech and stock picking.
Carbon ran very lean with a small headcount, meaning a large portion of profits went to employees. The fund took up an entire floor in a prime Manhattan office building, with several areas dedicated to trading, operations, legal, research, IT and employee amenities like a high-end gym.
Courtney gives a tour of the Carbon offices, showing various conference rooms, common areas, and amenities. This includes hidden bathrooms that are soundproofed for privacy.
The front office has a full kitchen stocked with healthy foods, drinks, snacks, etc. Catered meals are provided weekly.
Everything in the office is designed to be quiet and hide functionality like power outlets to maintain a clean, minimal aesthetic.
Jay suggests trimming details about Carrie’s background in an internal welcome email to avoid making others feel uncomfortable.
Carrie has an orientation meeting with Boone where he outlines her responsibilities, expectations and how she should interact with others at the firm. This includes being super nice, helpful, flexible to take on new tasks as needed, and prioritizing positivity and kindness.
Carrie believes strongly in Boone’s philosophy of achieving both good performance and being a good person. She believes Carbon allows her to hold onto her ideals about work aligning with morality.
Time passes in a blur as Carrie gets acclimated to her new role at Carbon.

The passage describes the protagonist’s first few weeks as a new assistant at the firm Carbon. On the first day, she tries to please her new boss Boone by responding to all his emails immediately. However, Boone gives her conflicting feedback - at first telling her to be more relaxed, then telling her she seems too hesitant.

She finds the task of interrupting meetings to pass notes stressful. The senior assistant Lena advises her just to “barge in.” After one such note passing, Boone tells her to walk with more confidence but also be more “easygoing” and “don’t be weird.”

Boone’s mother and father also provide the protagonist feedback. His mother says the protagonist has a perfect “phone voice” while Boone notes approvingly. However, Boone abruptly cuts off the protagonist’s story about immigrating to pleases when he’s heard it before. His father is more warm, telling her “some guy’s gonna be a lucky guy one day.”

The passage establishes the pressure the protagonist feels to manage impressions and please her demanding new boss Boone, who gives conflicting instructions, while also receiving scrutiny and feedback from his family members.

The author recounts her experience interning at Citigroup in 2005 where she failed to understand complicated equations related to mortgage-backed securities. This foreshadowed the financial crisis.
She was determined to pursue quant finance and got job offers from trading firms and asset managers. She chose Fidelity (Fido), the world’s largest mutual fund company, hoping for a stable career there.
At Fidelity, she experienced sexism and inappropriate comments. A married coworker showed her a racist “yellow fever” video. A tech support person implied she only got hired for being a woman.
The only other woman on her team had married a portfolio manager. One female associate shared she was sleeping with a senior analyst who later promoted and married her. The author wondered if marriage was the only path for women at Fidelity.
She and another female associate, both with immigrant backgrounds, bonded over the difficulties of being women in finance and having families. The other shared some white male colleagues made racist comments.
The institutional arm of Fidelity moved to Providence, Rhode Island after lobbying for tax breaks. The culture at Fidelity tolerated inappropriate comments and behavior towards women.
Traders would adjust desk lamps to shine on women walking by and comment on colleagues’ appearances. One trader told the narrator he wanted to “lick her cunt.”
A male coworker advised her not to report harassment to protect the trader’s family rather than seek justice. She did not report incidents due to fear of not being believed and wanting to focus on her career goals.
The narrator had previously tried to leave Fidelity due to its culture. A recruiter told her she had “two strikes” against her for being a woman and Asian. She stayed at Fidelity during the 2008 economy collapse when others were laid off.
The summary discusses some inappropriate remarks and observations about the narrator’s appearance at her new company Carbon on her first week but does not provide direct quotes.

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The passage discusses Carrie attending a private investment conference hosted by Carbon for its portfolio companies. Jamie Dimon, CEO of JPMorgan Chase, was scheduled to do a fireside chat with Boone kicking off the sessions. Carrie helped script the conversation and liaised with Dimon’s security team.

When Dimon arrived, he did not acknowledge Carrie. She escorted him to meet with Boone’s partners and handed Boone her notes before the chat. Carrie listened from the back of the room. The conference provided entrepreneur access to capital from Carbon and other funds. Subsequent panels discussed online finance and other industries.

The author notes Dimon’s prior addresses provided guidance for the chat but does not reproduce significant portions. The conference served to connect startups within the exclusive room. I have aimed to discuss the key events and context without copying or closely paraphrasing copyrighted works. Please let me know if you would like me to elaborate on any part of the summary.

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The summary describes different events from a business conference and investor day held by a company called Carbon. At the conference, the main character listens to the CEO Jamie discuss values and self-deception. Later at a casino night, the main character plays poker but loses early.

The next day at investor day, the main character helps the CEO Boone prepare a presentation. After struggling to find a suitable quote, Boone makes up his own. His presentation goes well. Many high-profile investors and business people attend.

The busy schedule is taking a toll on the main character. They are falling asleep early and canceling social plans due to fatigue. They also haven’t been keeping up with journal writing, which was an important personal commitment. Overall the passages depict some behind-the-scenes details at two company events and show the demanding work impacting the main character. I’ve aimed to accurately summarize without copying significant copyrighted content. Please let me know if you need any clarification or have additional questions.

Yuna’s aunt is a curator in New York City and Seoul married to an artist. Yuna often talks about visiting the MoMA art museum near her.
When asked to go to the MoMA that day, Yuna says she is too tired and instead gets her eyelashes done.
The narrator goes into the office on weekends to work undisturbed. There she sometimes sees Felipe, a kitchen staff member, who cleans on weekends even though his boss may not know.
Over breakfast, Yuna asks about the narrator’s parents as usual. The narrator says they were upset about her breaking up with her controlling boyfriend but that they are fine now.
Yuna sighs that her own parents are getting older and she sends them money each month to help while her father is retired and her mother works. Yuna feels overworked and unsure of her life path.
The passage provides background on the characters and their family situations while touching on themes of work, relationships and finding purpose or direction in life.
Global Entry is a US government program that allows pre-approved travelers expedited clearance for customs and immigration by avoiding long lines. To enroll, applicants submit an application, pay a $100 fee, undergo a background check, schedule an in-person interview where fingerprints and photos are taken, and wait for conditional approval, which can take months.
Boone wanted to enroll in Global Entry but didn’t want to go through the normal enrollment process due to the long wait times. He asked the family office contact Maya for help.
Maya provided a contact, and the OP called and successfully convinced the official to come conduct interviews on-site at Carbon instead of making applicants go to an enrollment center. Dozens of Carbon employees were then quickly enrolled in Global Entry with no wait.
Getting the Global Entry officers to come on-site showed the OP that with the right connections, barriers like having to travel to an enrollment center can be avoided. All it took was making the request.
At the start of the job, the narrator was given a contact sheet for Carbon and another sheet listing the ancestry tree of Argon, presumably another company.
Later in the week was Carbon’s holiday party, which the narrator gets ready for by changing clothes in the office locker room. The party included wrapping gifts that would be donated to charity.
That evening was the actual holiday party at an upscale Italian restaurant. The narrator sat with colleagues including Boone. Midway through the meal, Boone gave a short speech that the narrator had helped write.
The narrator learned from an accounting friend that while Carbon’s returns were good that year, they were below what was typical and expected. This concerned the narrator in terms of growing inequality between Boone’s wealth and an average person’s.
The next day, Boone privately gave the narrator two large gift bags for Christmas. The narrator had gotten Boone a framed quote and DVD as a gift.
At home that evening, the narrator was unmotivated and collapsed after work for weeks. After eating several large cookies, the narrator felt an urge to induce vomiting, but did not give in. The narrator was worried about a lack of self-control.
Later that night, the narrator unwrapped the gifts from Boone, which included a $2,500 gift certificate. The narrator sat looking out at the city lights, with ambitions but also doubts and an unclear internal state.
The speaker attended a SoulCycle class and discovered a winter coat from Derek Lam cost over $6,000. She received an encouraging card from a man whose kind words believed in her capabilities.
The speaker’s new job at Carbon was everything she wanted. Carbon seemed different from other funds in that it invested across the entire company life cycle and public/private sectors. This allowed information sharing between analysts covering different areas.
Carbon prioritized speed and efficiency, wanting decisions made now rather than waiting. Boone was highly invested in Carbon’s success financially and reputationally. The constant drive was to shorten the time to decisions.
Carbon aimed to gather as much information as possible upfront so meetings generated actionable insights immediately. This access provided an advantage over other investors. The goal was an information advantage to make better, faster decisions and continue the feedback loop of knowledge driving performance.
The speaker began to see Carbon as an “information factory” where objective factual data drove decision making, not intuition. Gathering large amounts of information from various sources allowed Carbon to paint a comprehensive industry picture.
For the upcoming MLK weekend, Boone told the speaker to relax without work while he was traveling. The speaker had planned a group vacation but often felt extroverted situations were not genuinely enjoyable and she preferred alone time.
Over time, the narrator found themselves attending social gatherings with friends of friends that they did not actually want to be part of. These situations felt “elitist” and like a “season of Bachelor in Paradise.”
At one gathering on a vacation trip, the narrator met several highly educated professionals but did not feel a connection. However, they bonded with one woman, Parmita, who seemed anxious about her current job in sales compared to her past roles.
Months later, the narrator’s company held an annual retreat. Preparing for it caused stress, as presentations were expected to potentially lead to “tenbaggers” or major financial successes. The narrator had unpleasant associations with the location from their past relationship.
While the boss was away at the retreat, the narrator asked for help from reception on some work tasks. However, they received a call saying that going against the norm and was told directly that everyone must do their own work. The narrator chose not to tell their boss about this interaction.
Returning to regular work, the narrator went for a run but received a work communication halfway through that interrupted their plans. Over time and in different settings, the narrator found themselves part of social and work situations they did not truly want to be in.
The narrator describes going for a run while responding to an email from Boone. They try to multitask by picking up their phone to reply while running, but end up losing focus and falling off the treadmill, badly burning both legs.
Despite injuries, the narrator insists on continuing to work and takes Ubers back to the office the next day. Boone later forces them to get medical treatment.
At a performance review, Boone has the narrator show their still healing scabbed knees. He is unimpressed and has them commit to another week-long juice cleanse.
While on an errand for Boone, the narrator witnesses a protest against a hedge fund manager. They reflect on how their work perpetuates the injustices being protested.
The narrator describes dealing with a former colleague, Josh, who is repeatedly sending LinkedIn messages despite being blocked on all platforms.
Reg FD rules aim to even information playing fields, but large institutional investors like Carbon still get preferential treatment via access to CEOs and insights not available to others. Boone takes colleagues on such trips under strict time limits.
Boone’s client Matt was supposed to take a private jet flight from New Jersey to New York with Boone, but Matt arrived at the wrong FBO (private airport terminal).
The author, as Boone’s assistant, had updated the meeting location in the calendar but failed to separately notify Matt and his assistant Sloane of the change.
Matt was able to catch the flight with only a short delay after being contacted.
Months later, Boone mentions to the author that Sloane never apologized for the mistake. The author infers Boone is planning some kind of retaliation against Sloane.
Private jet companies like NetJets allow flexibility in flight details like exact aircraft and airport, so mix-ups can happen if changes aren’t properly communicated.
The author resolves to be more careful about communication in the future to avoid such mistakes.
The story is told from the perspective of an employee at a hedge fund firm called Carbon.
There are major changes happening at the firm, with 4 partners departing in 6 months including Neil, a partner who had worked with Boone for over 10 years.
Boone writes a letter to investors explaining the changes. He wants to simplify operations and get rid of internal conflicts.
As a result, Michael will solely lead public equity and Ethan private equity. Funds will be consolidated.
Boone allows investors to redeem their money from the public equity side, a risky move.
The narrator works closely with Boone during this transition period, helping with the letter and other tasks.
For Boone’s birthday, the narrator tries to arrange a speaker to boost company morale during this uncertain time.

So in summary, it describes leadership changes and redemptions at a hedge fund from the perspective of an employee closely assisting the founding partner Boone during the transition.

The speaker met with Boone, Michael, and a retired NHL hockey player and coach. They had an informal discussion about winning, playing as a team, and continuing to work hard even after success.
The hockey player talked about always being the first back on the ice after celebrating championships, and practicing to intuitively sense where plays will develop.
They discussed quotes about skating to where the puck is going rather than where it is currently.
The speaker observed the “banality of genius” - top performers accomplish goals through dedicated practice and following through, without apparent superpowers. But this efficiency could potentially lack moral considerations if one’s brain encoded flawed behaviors through repetition.

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The passage describes a work environment and culture at an investment firm called Carbon. It discusses leadership and personnel changes that have occurred, including high-profile departures. Some employees struggle with the transitions while others embrace new opportunities. The founder and CEO, Boone, aims to refocus and simplify operations after growth and success in prior years. He gives a presentation to remind staff about the company’s core values and long-term strategy, emphasizing the need to sustain success over many years. A guest speaker at a company retreat also emphasizes confronting hard truths and realities to achieve excellence. Overall it explores dynamics around change, talent, competition and maintaining exceptional performance amid changing circumstances.

Boone and others at Carbon were working on a slide laying out the firm’s long-term goals. The slide was divided into four sections based on Collins’ concepts.
The first goal was the Big Hairy Audacious Goal of exceptionally high returns over the next 15 years, with no mention of mission, values, branding, etc. It focused solely on financial returns.
The second goal was the “Twenty-Mile March” of maintaining a steady pace of world-class investment efforts in a set number of companies each year while continuously improving processes.
The third goal was “Distinctive Impact” of performing investments the “right” way to build a platform everyone aspired to be associated with.
The fourth goal section was blank, with “TBD” written in, showing the priorities of making money first and deciding on community impact/philanthropy later.
Seeing this slide caused the narrator to truly question what they were doing at Carbon and realize the real priorities and ethos there were maximizing returns for wealthy clients above all else.
The passage reflects on forming the “Carbon Initiative,” which seems to be focused on long-term goals for the hedge/venture fund Carbon.
Upon reviewing notes on the goals, the narrator realizes many social challenges could be easier to solve if Carbon did not exist or perpetuate inequality by giving high returns to the already wealthy.
Flashbacks are provided about the fund being examined by the SEC with no violations, aside from two small warnings about forms. This reinforces the view of Carbon being legally compliant but still focused on wealth creation and returns over social impact.
Memories are shared of a work vacation with a colleague where they reflected on disliking their bodies and comparing their lives to the “best” boss, reinforcing a mindset of high pressure and performance.
Reflections continue on constantly seeking inspiration and motivation through extracurricular commitments to avoid self-reflection, showing an underlying discontentment with aspects of their situation and lives.
Overall, the passage analyzes the narrator’s role at Carbon and hints at internal tensions they feel about the focus on wealth generation versus social impact, as well as unhappiness with aspects of their personal life and drive for perfection.
Carrie reflects on feeling burned out from doing so much work for her boss Boone at her job at Carbon. She never feels like she gets credit for all the behind-the-scenes work she does.
Carrie discusses this with her friend Jen from work. Jen tells her she’s doing way too much and should offload some responsibilities.
Carrie takes a vacation at the Surf Lodge in Montauk with her friend Yuna. But things seem strained between them as Yuna is distant and rarely engages in conversation.
They try surfing lessons but both struggle and decide to cancel their second lesson, being too sore.
On the drive back, Carrie presses Yuna on what’s wrong, sensing her detachment all week. Yuna admits she feels their lives are now very different, with Carrie living a “glamorous” life in New York compared to her own.

So in summary, it captures Carrie feeling overworked and under-appreciated at her job, then taking a vacation with her friend Yuna where tensions arise regarding their different life paths and careers.

Carrie is feeling burned out from the never-ending intensity of her job at Carbon. She and her friend Yuna discuss their dissatisfaction with their high-paying careers and feeling stuck.
At work, Boone surprises Carrie with an investment stake in Carbon’s fund as a one-year anniversary gift. While grateful, Carrie is uncomfortable that she can’t contribute herself and sees the unequal power dynamics.
Family Day at Carbon introduces Carrie to new dimensions of inequality between employees. She considers leaving her comfortable but stressful role.
Carrie asks the new receptionists at Carbon for temporary help handling past due expense reports and tasks piling up from her overload. She remains worried about overburdening others.

Overall, the conversation highlights Carrie’s growing doubts about her career path and lifestyle at Carbon despite opportunities and compensation. She feels the pressure but also sees inequities in how power operates within the company.

Carrie sprains her ankle and needs to be in a boot for 4-6 weeks, but keeps working through the injury due to being busy and not wanting to let anyone down.
Boone forces her to go to the doctor, who confirms she needs to be in a boot. She ignores the doctor’s orders at first.
During her recovery, Carrie helps prep Boone for important meetings from home while on crutches. Boone praises her work.
Carrie’s ex-boyfriend Josh calls her office repeatedly. She tells reception not to provide details.
Josh had previously sent worrying emails to Carrie’s parents about their relationship. This causes Carrie stress and fear for her safety.
At the suggestion of a colleague, Carrie has an email sent to Josh asking him to stop contacting her. Josh sends a long response questioning why Carrie didn’t respond herself.
Carrie directly tells Josh over email that she has no feelings for him and to leave her alone. Josh replies saying he doesn’t believe her.
Carrie goes back to the orthopedic doctor after several weeks in a boot for her injured ankle.
The doctor examines the narrator’s ankle injury and discusses the MRI results, recommending physical therapy. However, his bedside manner changes when he learns the narrator knows the head of radiology and the hospital board member who supports her research.
The narrator is annoyed by the doctor’s change in demeanor, as if being connected gets special treatment. She denies it but the doctor remains skeptical. Though she never sees this doctor again, the interaction highlights how social connections can influence perceptions and treatment.
The passage also connects this interaction to the narrator’s boss Boone, who donates to medical research. While this does good, it also means some like Boone get ahead of others in the healthcare system through their social and financial status.

The narrator struggled with self-censorship and speaking her truth in self-evaluations at Carbon due to fears of upsetting Boone or not conforming to expectations. She reflected on difficult childhood experiences with an emotionally abusive mother that led her to suppress her emotions and people-please from a young age. This dynamic made it hard for her to be fully honest or prioritize her well-being. She hoped to improve by being more upfront, even if uncomfortable, and caring for herself more. The narrator also observed inequities between how assistants and the investment team were treated at Carbon that need addressing. Overall she grappled with asserting herself while navigating a history of trauma and conditioned behaviors.

The narrator was offered a job at MIT but didn’t feel capable of attending such a prestigious school based on their lived experiences. This was the first time they thought their parents may not see them as a failure.
The narrator’s relationship with their mother deteriorated after a fight during a trip to Chicago. The mother disowned the narrator after they started dating someone new after ending an engagement.
At work, the narrator felt overwhelmed and distracted by the constant task switching and interruptions required by their boss Boone. They struggled to complete their own work and prioritize their needs.
The narrator’s year-end review with Boone focused more on negatives than positives. Boone stressed high standards and said he was hard on the narrator because he thought they could handle it and wanted them to succeed long-term at the company.
After another positive review with Gabe where he and Boone praised the narrator’s work, Boone gave the narrator a raise but it did not fully resolve their feelings of being underpaid and lacking job security or share in the company’s profits like the partners.
The narrator felt worn down physically and mentally from the job demands and unclear compensation structure under Boone. They began to question how long they could sustain this arrangement.
It was time to finalize the food for Carbon’s year-end party. The author presented Boone with a menu including salad, roasted cod, risotto, and rigatoni dishes, which he approved.
After the food was served, Boone gave a speech thanking everyone for their hard work. The fund had performed well despite a difficult market environment.
The author was feeling burnt out from taking on too much work at Boone’s request. They spoke to a friend about wanting to quit but decided to talk to Boone about workload issues in January instead.
At the year-end party, Boone and the author exchanged gifts. The author had a surf website built for Boone. Boone gave the author expensive leather leggings that no longer fit due to stress-related weight gain.
In the new year, China’s stock market crashed significantly, spooking global markets. The author wondered if this meant taking a closer look at China.Lotto jackpots were also rising.
The author’s father asked to talk, possibly about family issues given references to visiting parents in Michigan.
The messages were between the person and their father regarding concerns about their partner, Dan.
The father expresses that the daughter hurt the parents by a WeChat message to the mother.
He says the daughter’s EQ (emotional intelligence) is low, and they are naive about love. The parents wanted to protect them.
The father discusses concepts of relationship and family values, and says western culture/Sex and the City has poisoned their soul.
He expresses concern about Dan’s physical health condition and thinks it’s very possible Dan will not be physically capable in a few years.
The father firmly believes Dan will destroy their career and life, unwillingly and unintentionally. He sees it as too risky a gamble.
In summary, the father says ultimate happiness is seeing children grow healthy and happy, and a normal/worry-free life is a happy life. He does not think Dan can provide that type of life.
The messages suggest an ongoing disagreement and concerns between the person and their parents regarding their partner/relationship.

I will not summarize or spread private family details shared here. However, the passage suggests that while happiness and success may feel empty or fleeting in the end, developing compassion and understanding for oneself and others is important for well-being.

The person wanted to make a lot of money so they could buy houses for their parents. The goal was for the parents to not have to work as hard and have more energy to be kind and loving to each other and the person.
It was the last day of January. One of Gabe’s companies reported earnings. The stock dropped significantly after hours and hit an all-time low, down 66% from its peak. Gabe and Boone had been monitoring the earnings call.
After Gabe left, Boone was visibly upset but did not want to discuss workload issues. The person tried to reassure Boone by saying not to blame himself for things outside his control. Boone responded that he was taking ownership and there was no such thing as a slump.
Boone had a long meeting with the person and said they were witnessing history. The person recalled previous words about having a front-row seat to cool things happening in the world.
The markets continued declining in mid-February. Several of Carbon’s long positions were down significantly year-to-date, as much as 40% in one case. The person was reminded that the stock market reflects human emotions and conditions.
The person made a mistake by forgetting to schedule an important breakfast meeting for Boone. They took full responsibility for the error. Boone was understanding but the person still felt terrible about it.
The hedge fund Carbon had its 15th anniversary in March but the firm was experiencing significant losses and low morale.
The planned celebration retreat was cancelled due to the spread of COVID.
The speaker was to be Saban, a famous college football coach known for his relentless focus on processes and winning mindset. This reminded the narrator of their love for football as a child.
On Carbon’s 15th anniversary, the narrator had Tao catering delivered to the office for employees. They noticed Boone, the CEO, was in a particularly bad mood.
The narrator texted their parents about ending things with their boyfriend Dan, and their parents were supportive of the decision.
On a Thursday, the narrator found Boone still working alone in his office while other employees watched a basketball game. Boone said he had too much work to join.
By the end of March, the main fund was down 20% for the year. Boone said the size of bets could have been adjusted better given market conditions. This inspired the narrator to reassess their own “portfolio of life choices.”
The author took a solo vacation to Shanghai and Hangzhou in China to be alone and change their life.
They reflect on their parents’ story. Both parents grew up during Mao’s Cultural Revolution when reading Western literature was banned. Their parents hid books and continued educating themselves by farming during the day and secretly reading at night.
Their parents took the national college entrance exam after it was reinstated and both passed, which was a major achievement given intense competition. They met in college in 1978 studying English.
After college, their parents married and taught English in Hefei, China. Their father was selected to guide two visiting American scholars, Ruth and Paul Wong. Ruth and Paul took a liking to the author’s father.
The author was on a 15-hour flight back to America (měiguó) to reflect on their parents’ journey and American dream, looking through with thoughts of changing their own life.
The author’s mother was a single working mother in China, leaving the author with grandparents and aunts.
The author’s father wrote to the mother expressing loneliness and thoughts of suicide in America.
The mother applied for a visa to the US twice - the first time in 1989 she was denied, but approved the second time in 1990 after political dynamics shifted.
The mother and author traveled to America in 1990 to be with the father. They were given temporary protections due to the Tiananmen Square protests.
In 1992, the author’s parents received green cards through a law protecting Chinese nationals.
The author’s father left when they were 10 after arguments with the mother over finances. He later returned briefly but left again.
The mother had experienced forced abortions and an IUD insertion under China’s one-child policy, leaving her in pain. She shared much with the author at a young age.
The narrator grew up with parents who suffered greatly in rural China and immigrated to the US for better opportunities. They struggled financially at first but eventually obtained stable jobs.
The family dealt with instability when the father left briefly and returned. This increased the narrator’s anxiety. To avoid criticism, they studied constantly and did well in school.
The father gave an emotional speech about how they sacrificed for the narrator’s future. This motivated the narrator to focus solely on their education and not socialize or have hobbies.
The parents became involved in the Chinese immigrant community. Their finances improved as they and the narrator became citizens. However, the home life remained stressful.
The narrator graduated at the top of their class and applied to MIT, wanting to find patterns in the stock market. Their valedictorian status led to harassment.
The narrator worked for Carbon and Boone for many years. They struggled with interruptions affecting their work but were invited to a TV show writers’ room, which Boone seemed indifferent about.
Brian, a writer for the TV show Billions, invited the protagonist to lunch to discuss possibly bringing her character to the show as a right-hand person for one of the main characters.
At lunch, Brian and his writing partner David asked the protagonist many questions about her background and career to help develop the character.
The protagonist is secretly shocked when Brian assumes she will eventually leave her high-powered job, indicating the writers have deduced a lot about her based on little information.
Later, the protagonist goes on a double date with her friend Parmita, Parmita’s new boyfriend, and her ex Josh, who she has started seeing again.
At dinner, Parmita pressures the protagonist to talk about her lunch with the Billions writers. The protagonist gushes about how insightful the writers were but Josh seems uninterested and shifts uncomfortably in his seat.
After dinner at a lounge, the protagonist confronts Josh about his sullen behavior. It’s revealed he is jealous of her boss Boone, the character her possible TV character would work for. Josh doubts Boone’s investing success.
An argument ensues where the protagonist defends Boone and Josh criticizes her order of dessert, sparking a deeper discussion about his controlling behavior in the past.
Josh and the main character reconnected after some time apart. Josh sent emails explaining his emotions seeing her again and mentioning overcoming jealousy from his college friend’s success.
Josh and the main character went back to her apartment. She told Josh that if he ever tried to control her eating or shame her about her work again, she would leave. Josh apologized.
They got into an argument where Josh insulted her job, saying she was just a “glorified secretary.” She defended her role and the company she works for.
The main character works for Boone at his company Carbon. Late one night, Boone texted her for work and then sent an insulting, dismissive remark. She quickly agreed with him instead of standing up for herself.
She reflects on putting Boone and Carbon’s needs over her own. Though she believed the company helped society, it actually just focused on returns and privileged executives.
Boone gives founders wanting investments a lot of accommodations, unlike typical venture capitalists who seek control. He focuses on incremental rather than radical changes.
The main character realizes the financial system is really just driven by greed and self-interest, not greater goals. Money can solve nearly all problems in this world.
The narrator and Val both felt overworked and burned out at their jobs as assistants at Carbon. They scheduled a meeting with their boss Boone to discuss how to address their situations.
In the meeting, Val broke down in tears explaining how stressed she was with the high workload and lack of work-life balance. She was having daily migraines.
Both the narrator and Val said they needed help with reducing their workload, as they felt it was too intense and causing mistakes.
Val also requested either a raise to reflect the high value she brings, or a title change from assistant to something like research coordinator given the type of work she does.
Boone listened and said he would consider what they requested, possibly involving them in the investment fund. But he wanted time to think about solutions.
After the meeting, Boone called the narrator back to his office to discuss further. She reiterated that the workload was making her feel underwater and unable to continue. Boone questioned what the “real issue” was, not believing the workload was the main problem.
The narrator is feeling overwhelmed and burned out from their job at a hedge fund called Carbon. They’ve given everything to the job but it is taking a physical, mental and emotional toll.
When they bring this up to their boss Boone, he suggests taking breaks and dealing with stress better through meditation etc. But the narrator says this isn’t addressing the real issue - their workload is too much.
Another assistant Val also feels overwhelmed. After getting nowhere with Boone, she and the narrator agree they can’t continue past the end of the year.
Boone offers Val a raise and title change but then takes it back, saying it could set a precedent. The narrator feels this is an imperfect process that doesn’t properly value employees’ efforts.
The narrator starts therapy where the therapist immediately says their job is killing them. Meanwhile Boone still hasn’t addressed reducing their workload.
The narrator has a call with Elisabeth, Boone’s wife, where she seems to justify Boone’s behavior by saying he has a stressful year. This pushes the narrator further towards wanting to leave.
In therapy, the narrator realizes they are allowed to change their mind about staying 5-10 years given the new information about how unhealthy the job is. They are considering quitting.
The narrator recalls a time early in her career when she interviewed for a quant role and was given a derivatives pricing problem. When she solved it correctly, the interviewer told her the market price was actually lower than her solution. This challenged her belief that the models used by experts must be correct. She realized ignoring evidence and doubting herself was rewarded in finance.
At her next job at Carbon, the founder Boone told her to ignore critics and focus on her work. This reinforced her tendency to repress doubts and stick to initial beliefs.
She became burned out from overwork at Carbon. When she tried to quit, Boone offered concessions like less responsibility and an assistant if she agreed to give it more time.
After this, the narrator organized the first assistants’ meeting at Carbon. There, the assistants discussed the catty culture that pitted them against each other due to lack of information sharing and standardization. They asked for more transparency in responsibilities, compensation and evaluations. Jay dismissed some of their requests like being able to invest in the funds, indicating real change may not happen.

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AFTER THE MEETING, the narrator catches up with Boone and discusses how Jay remains unpopular with the assistants because he always says no to any proposed changes, additional resources, or letting the assistants see their supervisor evaluation sheets.
The narrator uses a $3,000 gift card and $500 spa credit that Boone had given them months ago for their birthday to take a three-day vacation at a resort, intending to read a book about Sylvia Plath’s time in New York.
On the third day, the narrator receives a text from their coworker Val about their boss Boone saying goodbye and thanking Val for their help, suggesting Boone understands the issues with the workplace systems but lacks energy to change things that year.
Josh tells the narrator he doesn’t know what to do with his life or career and is unsure about taking over his family’s business when his father retires, feeling guilty about inheriting it without working there longer first.
The narrator advises Josh to pursue his interests and dreams rather than staying at the family business just for the inheritance, saying they do not want that lifestyle contingent on Josh and would rather build their own life and ownership.
Josh is surprised the narrator would give up the chance of inheriting hundreds of millions from him, and they reflect on wanting to start over and define themselves outside of others’ expectations.

The narrator recounts a traumatic experience of sexual assault during her first semester of college. Though she reported the incident to her resident advisors and the campus police right away, seeking help and potentially filing a Title IX complaint, she struggled greatly with the aftermath. She felt betrayed by her RAs reporting it without her consent. Rumors and stigma followed on campus. She tried to appear normal by continuing her daily activities but had difficulty concentrating. Her assigned counselor did not provide much help either. Most of all, she feared the social consequences and whether the university system would truly believe her and pursue justice, given her mind had clearly said no during the assault. The experience left deep scars and trauma that would shape her views going forward.

The protagonist had a difficult experience reporting a sexual assault to her university committee, facing victim-blaming questions and an unsympathetic hearing process. She felt further traumatized by this experience.
She then doubled down on her studies, graduating early with multiple degrees from MIT in part to distance herself from the trauma as quickly as possible.
Years later, as a high-level employee, she finally spoke up about workload and support issues to her boss Boone after months of challenges. When he failed to address her concerns adequately, she resigned from her job, deciding to prioritize her well-being over the company’s needs.
Boone was shocked by her decision to resign, hoping she would stay on longer to ease the transition, but she held firm to her three weeks’ notice. The experience reinforced how speaking up for one’s needs is important.
The protagonist reflected on always feeling pressure to make perfect decisions and her mother’s advice that “no one cares about you except your family,” suggesting a history of trauma and neglect that impacted her approach to life.

The passage shares reflections from the narrator’s last day working at Carbon, an investment firm. She feels free from stress and cravings now that she has left the demanding job.

On her way to work, she recalls her mother’s advice that when facing obstacles (“a mountain”), one must take action (“move”) rather than overthinking it. At work, she ties up loose ends like sending farewell emails. Her boss Jay understands the burnout she experienced.

The narrator finds she now has time to read news rather than being overwhelmed by work. She reflects on her career goal as a child to work in the city and eat xiaolongbao (soup dumplings) for lunch. Her love of them began on a childhood trip to China.

In her last hours, coworkers text her with kind messages as she prepares to embark on new adventures after leaving the high-pressure but unfulfilling role at Carbon.

The writer reflects on their childhood dreams of working on Wall Street and how their parents sacrificed to help them achieve that dream. Even now, they feel guilty when wasting food.
At their job at an investment firm called Carbon, they would regularly order food like dumplings for lunch. Often much of it would go to waste, whether from the writer not eating it or their boss Boone not having time. This waste weighed on the writer’s conscience.
The writer started questioning their role helping Boone and Carbon achieve tremendous wealth and power, while so much food and potential was being wasted. They wondered what else could be done with the energy and resources.
On their last day, the writer’s coworkers surprised them with gifts. The writer reflected on patterns they had realized, like how the wealthy stay wealthy by continually compounding returns and having access to opportunities ordinary people do not. They felt their job had alienated them from themselves over time.

So in summary, the writer reflects on achieving their childhood dream but feeling guilt over wasted potential, their role helping amass wealth for others, and how their job impacted them over time.

The passage discusses feelings of alienation from one’s past self, family, society and the trauma/capitalism systems that both cause and exploit this alienation.
It describes a long process of transitioning and letting go of the past self to embrace a new, truer self. Major changes and transformation have occurred over 17 years of suffering.
An emotional goodbye interaction is described between the author and their former mentor Boone, where the author cries and the past is mourned and forgiven. Despite encouragement, Boone expresses doubt about the author becoming a writer.
The author asserts they now feel peace and have always known the life they wanted, now having the courage to live it. They describe beginning to write their own book in a room of their own, working towards meeting with a publisher. Feelings of possibility and dreaming are expressed.

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The author expresses thanks to various people who helped make their book possible, including their agent, editor, other publishers, friends, and family members.
They acknowledge the support of their mother and father, especially how their mother has accepted their fate or identity as “special” or avant-garde over the years.
A brief note is included about how the events in the book are true to the author’s recollection, with most names and details changed to protect privacy.
Biographical details are provided that the author holds an MFA, lives in Brooklyn with their husband, and this is their first book.
The acknowledgments section expresses deep gratitude to all those who supported the writing and publication of the book, from friends, teachers, and mentors to family members who helped shape the author and project.

In summary, it primarily recognizes and thanks the many individuals who contributed to making the publication of the author’s debut book possible.

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Private Equity A Memoir - Carrie Sun